Lisa

So, I havent done one of these things in awhile, but it shouldnt feel neglected cause i ignored myspace as weel, and just recently began coming back one the computer again. So a lot has happened since we last talked. First, and biggest, I moved out of my mom's house. I'm actually renting from her in our old house in Concord. It's wierd being in the same house as before only with different people, I now have my mom's room, which is awesome! I'm paying a lot of money in bills though, it much money to live on your own. I took a semester off from school and so now I'm working full time at Caffino. I'm pretty much always tired. It's been nice though not having to go to school and having money. I auditioned for Little Shop of Horrors and I actually got a call back! I couldnt believe it, my jaw literally hit the floor, like i fell off my chair. I've never had a call back with this company before, so we will see about the show. I'll let you know. I got a new car. It's a 2001 red mustang. It's HECKA cool. It's a stick shift and ssooooooo much fun to drive. Better than that old piece of crap truck that i love so much. Yep, and that about it.

So, I decided to do Godspell, I auditioned and got in. Now I am playing the role of Satan....ooo fun!! I have this really great song though, my favorite in the entire show. The director told me though that i was going to be picked up and I would have to jump on Jesus(played by Mike Wells) he's skinny! I'll crush him! I'm just kind of worried, I guess. I have big trust issues. But since I found out, I've lost five pounds, and I'm going to try to lose 15 more by the time the show opens. Then, maybe I'll have a little more confidence in myself.

Whatever happens, happens. It's cool! By the way, I hope everyone had a good Valentines Day! Stephen, Liz and I had a musical Fiesta, ate junk food and played songs from Godspell and Jekyll and Hide. It was fun.

It's been a long time since I've been here. Nothing really new in my life. Just work work and more work. I'm working 35 hours a week, and I'm still juggling shows, schools, and driving everyone around! So yeah. Boring life at the moment but whatever, at least I'm happy.

So, North Pole Review is finally over! And I never have to put on that stupid makeup that gives me acne. I will never be in that show again either. Three years is enough right? And is there really much higher to go than Jack, though I'd like to give Dolly a try! I only have one more show to do for STAGE and thats Godspell, but Im not sure if i want to be doing that because the director is changing the script and the lyrics so its not against religion. Godspell is a parody of religion, its not meant to be "correct."

And it Christmas, I am all Christmased out! Too much of it this year. I have spent a multitude of money, which I cant ever get back now because its gone to presents for the family. I work tomorrow, Christmas Eve, and Christmas, and I'm hoping that will give me some definish moolah! Because I need it.

The holidays make me crazy, its okay though, as soon as I go to the snow, I wind down. I'm going twice this year too! Its going to be nice. I love the snow! It makes me happy. Well a lot of things make me happy but snow is at the top of my list! Well, I hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday season! Get some good gifts!

So the first weekend of North Pole Review is over, and I'm dead tired. I had to go to work right after the show tonight and I didnt have time to take off my makeup. I got good tips during that 2 hours I worked, came home with $9. Pretty awesome. The shows were just okay, we filmed, of coarse, the two worst shows this weekend. But its all good. We still had fun! Boy, I cant wait til next weekend. This should be fun! But, I am excited about this being my first main lead. Yay!

This, I'm sure of it has been the longest week of my life.

On Sunday I worked from 8-2 then went to my dad's house to give him a piece of my mind. I have $24,000 in an account for school. I heard that he wasnt going to give me that money for that reason but instead for when I go to buy my house! I was outraged. I went to his house. We fought, about everything. My conversation ended up going to place where I didnt want it to go. I said I didnt want anything to do with him ever again. I handed him the keys to my truck, more like through them at his face, and I said he can have that money my grandfather gave to me, I didnt want anything to do with it(though I loved my grandfather very much). Anyways, I stomped out the door and began to walk home. My dad lives in Martinez...I walked to the Brendan Theatres. It took a long time. My dads girlfriend saw me and picked me up. She drove me back to my dads house and told me I was going to apologize, kiss and hug, and ask for my keys back, then we are all happy once more. I dont know about you, but my dad and I are not like that, we've never been happy. I dont like him and he knows it. He delibratly tries to make my life harder for me. He wants me to fail and to come back crying on my hands and knees saying "you were right." I'm not going to do that. I'm a lot stronger than he thinks. Anyways, I walked back in but things didnt go as planned, I got my truck back, I didnt apologize, neither did he. But at least we talked. We should be okay for a few weeks at least. So I drove my self home and went straight to sleep. I was exhausted phisically and emotionally.
I woke up Monday morning with the worst headache. My head wouldnt stop pounding and throbbing. I ended up coming home in the middle of the school day because I couldnt even concentrate. But then I had rehearsal at 3:45. Well, I took a whole bunch of drugs and went a little loopy. People could tell I was on something. Lets just say I wasnt myself...at all. This ended at 5:45, but I stayed until 7, dealing with costume stuff. I went home and slept.
Tuesday morning I had traffic court. The worst thing I ever had to go to. The jugde reminded me of my government teacher. Dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. But he was really funny whatever it was. That went well and my fine was reduced from $220 to $114. Awesome. After that I ran all over Walnut Creek to find Jazz Sneakers. Found them at $57, which isnt too bad. I go home and get a call from my director saying she needs my truck. Okay, sure. I tell her I have night school at 6. Do you think she cares? Obviously not, I was 20 min. late. I drove all over Concord, Pleasant Hill and Walnut Creek. Tough on gas. Night school was fine. Came home and went to sleep.
Wednesday morning, Lucy, my cat, has an appointment to get fixed. I take her at 8:15 in the morning. I get there she gets examined, but then the doctor tells me she is a he. A Lucifer! Lets just say I was confused. So we get him fixed. But wait, theres more! I get a call around noon telling me the procedure went well, but they believe Lucy is a hermaphadite, not sure if I spelled that one right. I was left speechless. Lucy went from being a girl to a boy to a girlboy all in a matter of hours. Wonderful. She had balls but no penis and a vagina. Okay. No ovaries but a uterus. Okay. The vet said they had never seen anything like that before and they took pictures. They also want her back in for blood work. It was just a crazy morning. Now ,in the afternoon we had to perform a shortened version of our show at Holiday Fest. We met at the Winslow Center then carpooled to the rec center. Justin Johnson, this kid who just got hi lisence, didnt know how to get there. He followed Stephen. The two buildings are right down the street from each other. Anyways, Stephen saw a yellow light ahead and slowed down...Justin didnt. He rear ended Stephen and now his bumper is stuck in Stephen's hood. Justin doesnt have insurance either. Bad Justin. It was just crazy. Stephens getting a new car because the repairs cost more than what the car is worth. Whatever. Nothing went well, the performance was horrible too. We werent exactly paying attention to what we were supposed to be doing.
Today is Thursday, nothing bad has happened so far but you never know. The day is still young. We open tomorrow and I am so nervous, its not even funny. I cant believe how fast the time has gone away. I hope everything goes okay.

Disneyland was so much fun, although I spent tons of money, like always when I go there. But it was so worth it. So during the holiday season they decorate all of Disneyland. It was awesome. And after the fireworks, it snowed!!! Not real snow of coarse, but bubble snow. It was pretty freakin awesome!

I spent $75 on Stephens brithday presents. Spoogie and Im got him really great gifts. For those three days, Disneyland was indeed, truly a magical place where dreams come true.

You know what I just realized, I know too many people named Mike. Goodnight.

So...I just got back from seeing Harry Potter 4, I saw the 12:01 showing with Savannah, Mike, Kris, and som other random dude named Mik too.

It was sooooooooooooo good. I laughed almost the entire movie, and strangely no one thought it annoying. That never happens, it was nice.

Harry Potter 4 is their best one yet! Yay!!

Okay, well, its late, and I'm tired. I'm going to get a few hours of rest before i need to be at school at 7 in the morning. It's going to be a long day tomorrow. OOo! And I'm going to go see Noises Off with Stephen in El Cerito. Neither one of us know how to get there.

I'll probably be driving because Stephen is home sick with a 102 temperature, but he says hes not going to miss this show for anything. So, oh well. Like I said before, I'm going to bed. Goodnight unto you all.

Sonnet 75
by: Edmund Spenser

One day I wrote her name upon the strand,
But came the waves and washed it away:
Again I wrote it with a second hand,
But came the tide, and made my pains his prey.
"Vain man," said she, "that dost in vain assay,
A mortal thing so to immortalize,
For I myself shall like to this decay,
And eek my name be wiped out likewise."
"Not so," quote I, "let baser things devise
To die in dust, but you shall live by fame:
My verse your virtues rare shall eternize,
And in the heavens write your glorious name.
Where whenas death shall all the world subdue,
Our love shall live, and later life renew."

Sonnet 116
by: William Shakespeare (my favorite)

Let me not to the marraige of true minds
Admit impediments; love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove
Oh, no, it is an ever-fixed mark,
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wand'ring bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the egde of Doom.
If this be error, and upon my proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Disappointment

Disappointment, when it comes, is like your heart tearing in two with someone you love.

Holidays

The holidays bring laughter and light back into my life through the dreary winter cold.

That special person

In my mind, that special person comes. Running through like a dream, once he comes he'll run again and again.

Your future Career

My future career awaits me near or far. No matter where the path takes me, I know I'll be there someday.

So, moving in with my mom's boyfriend is different than I have expected. To explain this more or less, he's an asshole! He believes that I am immature, irresponsible, and I am not accountable for my actions. Yet, he didn't tell me this himself. He sent my mom off to talk to me because he thinks I am a problem. He thinks I am disrespectful to my mother, when isn't he doing the same thing by degrading her to a messanger?

For example, last night I went to Stephen's apartment, I called my mom, told her where I was going, and she told me to be home at 9. I was not home at 9, but at 1:30, which she somehow believes is 12:30. Whatever, best not to make anything worse. But Stephen was in need of my help and I wasn't going to leave him in the state he was in. I did not call my mom, because I did not want to wake her up. I've done this before, and she has had no problem with it, unless she just did not want to voice it. I never knew. But Nathan has a problem with me staying out until the wee hours of the morn'.

See, he thinks that whatever I do, his daughter, Gracie, who is 7; and my sister, Sara, 6; are going to pick up my bad habits. No offense to Nathan, but his daughter is a bitch! And she will do this anyway. My brother doesn't even has a license and he does this, but this we learned from other kids our age. Gracie and Sara will do the same, if not worse. I am the most responsible, mature 17 year old I know. If you know of another please point them out to me, I would love to meet them and take some pointers on how they handle everything.

Nathan needs to learn how to be a man, and he's not going to do that if he's going to cower in the corner and not talk to anyone. He's very introverted, like me. But he takes it to the extreme. Nothing but a hello and a goodbye for me. He needs to understand that my family has not had a father figure in 4 years, and things take some getting used to. As do we kids need to understand he now has three more kids in a matter of weeks. We need to work with each other, not avoid each other until the only people left in this house will be my mom and Nathan.

Even then, I do not think it will work out between the two of them. My mom is a romantic, she needs to be loved as she deserves and has never had that before. Nathan is a cold man, and shows no affection. I do not believe he is even capable of love. There is no warmth in his eyes, and it scares me. I dont fear for myself, but for my mom, who will open her heart to a slate of stone and be hurt once again. Life is not fair sometimes. I hope I have better luck than her at a life.

truck broke down on the freeway. Highway 24 right after the pleasant hill exit: priceless

call AAA, they towed my truck to my mechanic: priceless

walk to Sacha's house from my mechanics because no one could pick me up: priceless

engine stopped on the freeway, ignition wire was burned up, caused by an oil leak in my truck, which made my truck low on oil: priceless

The grand total of cost on repairs: $1250




Where shall I get the money?: DAD

What do I get from DAD?: lecture

What do I get from a lecture?: apparantly a lesson

What do I get from the lesson?: I need a new fucking truck, because the one I have is a piece of shit!

Don't tell me your age; you probably would tell a falsehood anyway-but the Hershey Man will know!



YOUR AGE BY CHOCOLATE MATH



This is pretty neat.

DON'T CHEAT BY SCROLLING DOWN FIRST!
It takes less than a minute .
Work this out as you read ...
Be sure you don't read the bottom until you've worked it out!
This is not one of those waste of time

things, it's fun.



1. First of all, pick the number of times a week that you would like to have chocolate
(more than once but less than 10)









2. Multiply this number by 2 (just to be bold)










3. Add 5












4. Multiply it by 50 -- I'll wait while you get the calculator













5. If you have already had your birthday this year add 1755 ....
If you haven't, add 1754.














6. Now subtract the four digit year that you were born.










You should have a three digit number










The first digit of this was your original number
(i.e., how many times you want to have chocolate each week).










The next two numbers are









YOUR AGE! (Oh YES, it is!!!!!)



THIS IS THE ONLY YEAR (2005) IT WILL EVER WORK, SO SPREAD IT AROUND WHILE IT LASTS.

I'm from California.

-I cuss a lot.

-If your from the bay you say "hella" or "hecka" which annoys the crap out of everyone even So-Cal-ers

-I say "like" and "for sure" and "right on" and "dude" and "bro" and I say it often.

-I know what real cheese & avocados taste like.

-I don't get snowdays off because theres only snow in Mammoth, Tahoe and Big Bear.

-Summers are really hot, and winters are really cold. That's the way it is.

-I go to the Beach - not "down the shore" (who the heck says that anyways?).

-I know 65 mph really means 80+.

-When someone cuts me off, they get the horn and the finger & accept it.

-I've been to "the city" aka "san fran" and have eaten fresh clam chowder out of a sourdough bread bowl.

-The drinking age is 21 but everyone starts at 14 (legally 18 if you live close enough to the border).


-My governor can kick ur governors butt.


-I can go out at midnight and wear a t-shirt and shorts.

-I might get looked at funny by locals when I'm on vacation in their state, but when they find out I'm from California I turn into a greek GOD.

-I can get fresh and REAL Mexican food 24 hours a day.

-All the TV shows you "other" states watch get filmed here.

-We have In-N-Out (Arizona and Vegas are lucky we share that with them).

-I'm from California and I love it....

IF YOU LOVE CALIFORNIA - REPOST THIS
IF YOU DONT REPOST THIS MOVE TO VERMONT

I dont understand what people want of me
I try my hardest to do my best
But still its not enough. Why not?
I dont understand...

I dont understand why people make the descisions they do
Is it best for them or for others?
Must they think hard to come to a conclusion?
I dont understand...

I do understand what I do
And what I think and why I do
I understand who I am
Does anyone else?

"Not a nebula"

"Dont tell anyone but my footprints are on stage"

"Tyler, did you screw the doorknobs on right? Someone better go check"

"Do you want to hear me evil laugh? Mwwaahhhaaaaaa!!!!!!"

"Are you done with that?"

"Salami"

"moo, mooooooo"

"Wow! That kiss looks soooo real"

"chicken noises coming from a rooster"

"Cheese. Cheese. I want some cheese."

"Hugs for good luck! Ahh, too many hugs"

"Stefen, dear boy"

"I need a vacation"

"Aaaah...manly scream"

"Well Casanova" -throw door handle

"close the north pole, I mean the deep north"

"Do the Lisa! Do the Lisa! Wait! Too much Lisa! Too MUCH Lisa!

"stop with the chicken"

"Your nearer"

"Did you get caught in the rain or is that shirt just tight?"

roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and so are you

no stars no states, one flag one country

Haggard

Accept the fact you cannot change

out of the box(clap, clap) out of the box

Back to school, back to school, to prove to daddy I'm not a fool

Life, Liberty, and Justice

La guerre des etoiles (raspy voice) " Luke, je suis ton pere."
"Oh la la, oui c'est vrai, oh la la"

Tout les monde, dansez! "Everybody dance!"

Cheese pour moi

"Aww, you look so cute." Gir, Invader Zim

What causes the spawn to form?

When you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are, anything your heart desires will come to you.

Comment-vous sentez vous aujourd-hui?

Hide what you know, hide even what you think, or face the concequences

How? Why?

The snack that smiles back goldfish!

Lisa est timid! Lisa is shy! Hiding behind the seaweed at the bottom of the ocean!

He rocks in the treetop all day long, hoppin and a boppin and a singin his song.

I'm too fat to fly.

Yeah toast!

Oh christmas tree, oh christmas tree.

I was born three centuries ago

The criminal! Who is this?

One-eyed monster

Ship of Dreams. "Maybe I'm just dreaming!" Joeyn hoped out loud.

Paris is the key to your heart.

Each day is Valentines day

Your my funny Valentine. Sweet comic Valentine, you make me smile with my heart. Your looks are laughable, unphotographable. Yet your my favorite work of art. Is your figure less than greek is you mouth a little weak? When you open it to speak, are you smart?

My name is Gir, hear me roar!

Fable

Now I walk in beauty, beauty id before me, beauty id behind me, above and below me

I have a tree for an eye

A shoe!

Density

My angry man. "Im very very angry"

Give me the gift of a grip top sock, a clip drap ship shape tip top sock, not your spive, slick, slapstick, slipshod stock. but a plastic, elastic, grip top sock -tongue twister

Every gift has a price.

Never too late.

Anything your heart desires

Jack-ie in the box

LA is picture perfect.

They see what they want
Nothing of who I'm really
I want to sparkle

What made the worm turn?
People change like this and that
What makes them changes so?